I did it! I did it! Yes, I did! Is it too early to overhaul my website? Maybe. But when I felt the urge and the energy to actually sit down and code on my own, I took advantage of it.
I learned a lot through tinkering with free layouts. I went through the basics then applied it on my own design. Good thing that I'm a complete noob, because I do not mind feeling stupid when things don't workāwhich happened pretty often. I also learned that frustration and deep breaths are all part of the process.
Another part of that process is just surfing through multiple websites and peeking at their codes. There are so many HTML and CSS elements that I did not know the name of or I did not know that is even possible. I hope I did not break some type of rule by doing that. I don't know all the rules and etiquette when it comes to coding but I try to credit those I drew inspiration from.
Now, by having my own official website which I made myself. I can finally call this a project. I was very insecure and wishy-washy with Love Michy but now, I feel more comfortable and confident with it. I spent too much time trying to find a home for all my hobbies and writings. I even thought that Tumblr might be the one, but nope. The answer is always owning your own shit.
A personal website feels like a new notebook that you're sure will finally fix your life, but I hope it stays like my journalāthe one that actually changed my life. A tool will not judge, censor, and tell you to find your niche. I don't need to be a slave to the algorithm or fear comments that will deliberately twist my words because I do not have to see all of that. You can talk about me, I am used to it, but I don't need to know nor care for it. All I really need to be isā¦ me. I can do whatever I want (within reason) without having the need to perform since I don't actually know if anybody is seeing me, and that is fine.
With that said, I encourage you to try something you know absolutely nothing about. It builds character and will definitely humble you. But, the satisfaction of getting a project done is fulfilling. You might learn things that are completely unrelated to the thing, you might meet new people that will change your outlook in life, or you might simply just have an epiphany. About what though? I don't know. That is all up to you.
All I'm saying is, through this journey, coding isn't the only thing I learned. I also learned to love problem solving again. I learned that it is actually okay to take your time especially when you are currently stuck with nowhere else to go. I learned to be patient and calm, the world do not care about my pace. It is also a very humbling experience. Lastly, I learned that my writing skillsĀ are not up to par anymore! I need to work on that.
I don't think I'm an expert nor even average at this point. But, I'm still proud of myself for actually finishing something I've been saying I will do for years. I want my website to be the reflection of my skill level when it comes to web design. I don't care if it looks too simple or not professional enough. That is not the point of me doing this anyway, so I will be fine.
I really am so excited of what comes next. I need to take advantage of this new found motivation and just go go go.